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Too thickening suppose. The bitterness has utterly covered the words.

Always, searching and answering question of our own.

Is our Love still there?

Think it’s slighting down. Putting more sugar would not have changed much either.

Why not just go till the end,finish up this cup and head back home.

Don’t sit there and marvel at my struggles.

Love that doesn’t work out, it’s like a one-liner, witticism.

Finding ourselve trap in hearty misseries when the heat is up,

but, being like an idiotic fool, when the heat starts to sway away.

Why are human so pathetic and weak?

A tasteless Love is like a big fat lie,

Only believe it when sweetness overflow us.

But, when we starts to taste the bitterness, every word is dismay

Why are human so cold in one sense…

- Quoted from suling’s >< translated by me ;p -

And this is how I felt.

ps… We are all human. Apart from Christ’s love which is unfailing, we have always been an idiotic in love contacting human and human. There is no definition, no direction, no answers. Only could realise at the end, whether we are living in a fog of our own fantasy or it is really just simply true. But humanity love is always temporary because it could fade. How can we truely find that unfading love…?

Dear all, I’ve found some new things lately. Superman (smallville) by FIve for Fighting. In case of you guys wondering, this song is a pop song. But particularly I post this song merely because it gives me teh encouragement of finding a better part of myself. I believe eveyrone of us have a better part of ourselve, which makes us special, identical and different from others. Sometimes, we are afraid of stepping forward to look at ourselve on the mirror, trying to find our true self. But, don’t be, because we are all special, inside of ourselves. I use to have a low self esteem. Always wanting to step a foot forward to find who I really are. But, lack of courage. After I known Christ, I found love. Found a way to life. I realise I am more than what I thought I used to be. As describe by the song, "more than a bird, more than a plane."

So, for readers out there, stop doubting yourself. You are more than what you thought you are. If no one appreciates you, God appreaciates you more than anyone. And that is more than what we all asked for. So, I hope y’all enjoy this mew post.

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird:I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train and
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd:but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won’t you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream but
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away:away from me
It’s all right:You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy:or anything:

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It’s not easy to be me

cheers,

- est -

ps… if any of you are looking out for it’s mp3, please do give me a tinkle, or PM me. ^^

Hello all, how’s everything going? Yeap, Im here for another inspiration. ^^

While doing my quiet time this morning, which directs to Psalm 34:11-22 and 3 John 1:4. It reads,

"I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth." 3 John 1:4

As I think upon this verse, I believe that every parents would want to know that, their children are in the right path, having success on hand and as well, being sincere in everything they do. Although now, I cant really imagine how does it really feels like in becoming a mother, but I sincerely thinks that, we are really pearls and jewels of our parents. Not to mentioned that, we are God’s precious princes and princesses. Providing us the best and according to our needs. Like wise what a parent would normally sacrifice for their children. But, did we ever think and make consideration room for them?

Our own selfishness often overtake our minds, and our hearts. Leading us towards an astray thinking all the time that, our parents are the worst ones we had, and that, they often gave non consideration towards our feelings, and what are the things that we actually needed.I too, have experience the arguements and querrels that happened in between me and my mom or my dad. But, as I look back my past today, somehow, sometime, I regret. For all the foolish words that I have said, and the naive amatuer thoughts that always ran through my mind, I feel somehow, I did not even take my time to look at my parents. Sincerely, just having to look at them. All the wrinkles on their face and their rough harded hand.

A slight of guilty sin arouse within, asking myself, why didn’t I consider their feelings? and their thoughts at the very beginning? How could I have let foolishness ran over me. Letting no room for consideration within me. Always, and always wanting our dear parents to consider us, rather than us considering them. I was wrong. Recalling to the verse, we are indeed being treated as pearls and jewels by our parents. But do we gave them the same treatment? I doubt it.. So many sacrifices, so many foolish arguements, and so many misundertanding, jsut for the sake of their favourite and beloved naive, foolish amatuers like me.

Sometimes, I prayed that there is a line that could connect the earth to Heaven. Enabling me to call, and just hear her and tell her that I miss her. Or, I may flew a kite up to the sky, reaching out to heaven, just want her to know that I am thinking of her now.

Sometime over, I would still think about my little bouster, which my mom made it for me. it was in red, and small. Hugging and carrying it ever since I was born until now, that I am 22, it is still with me. Not forgetting the smell of a mom’s fragrance in it, every needle and every string. Little bouster, little bouster, you are the only thing I have now. I bet you miss your maker too.

mama, I love you. Happy Mother’s Day!

Esther

Just another day, hm… Yeap, today is really someday, but it’s really jsut another day. BUT! I have to post some interesting FACTS that had happened today. I know that it’s a bit against what I am usually posting, but I just have the urge to post it, before I forgets it. Wakakaka…

07 May 2006 - Foosball: Boys vs gals - we won by 5-0

Wahahaha… Yes! Fay and I won foosball against 2 guys by 5-0. Wahahaha… Unbelievable? u better believe it. hiak hiak.

Truely by grace ^.^

Cheers

- out - Est’ -

ps… I have addopted a "sister" guys! ^^ His name is Yoonis (Eunice) >.< Im such a cute angel am i? hehe…

Hi everyone, Im going to talk about something different today. like what? mm… like… something about me, which annoys me most… >.<

Yea yea, i know some of you are not interested but i still wanna say lol… Coz it’s my blog. ;p But, I’ll still update some inspiring verse from time to time lol…

About me:

1. Im a lazy person. Coz I cant see that Im hardworking these days, so i think im getting lazy nowadays. even to grab a glass of water. >.< Im trying to improve myself, not towards laziness (LOL), but to a determined life.

2. Im a impatient person. I hate waiting, but I would not complain. Dun ask me why, coz I myself also dunno. That is also why I would try my best not to let people wait for me too. Including friendster! I hate the most when I were to upload a photo into my profile. Coz it takes a very very long time to make everything in a correct order. SIGH!!!

3. Im weak! YES! i know im fat. but guess wad? Im weaker than anyone of u guys out there. Believe it or not, I can get drowsiness even after drinking a sip of milk (JUST ANY MILK!). >< and I’ll be really really sick if I ever get sick…

4. I get myself hurt from time to time. Haha… Yea, coz I play with scissors sometimes. I know it’s weird but I just do. and got myself hurt on the fingers most of the time. The highest record of band-aid on my hands, are 7 band-aids. 5 in the right and 2 on the left. If i ever made another record, I’ll post the pictures in my friendster. PROMISE!

5.Im easily distracted. While doing my work, Im really easily distracted by erm… friendster? erm… finding music sheets? Haha… and etc.. Cant defeat the temptation sometimes. Im trying to improve it duh!

6. I have bad english. Admiting the fact though. It’s true. I cant really speak well, maybe becoz of teh vocabs or something… I cant understand complicated english… the worst case happens is that i need to use dictionary when chatting sometimes… with some people… (u know who u are la.. ><)… but no offence ok… likewise, it’s a good practice (LOL)…

Despite all the annoying things about me, Im still glad that God had made me so unique. There will be only one Esther in this whole world whom have this kind of personality and attitude~! ^.^

Here is something I would like to dedicate to all my friends,

"Nothing can dim the beauty that shines from within"

Cheers~

Esther =D