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Recently, I’ve jsut watch the movie <Silent Hill>. Was quite interesting though, as I use to watch my brother played its game, and now, we all resumes to its movie. But of coz stared by different actor. From there, I’ve hooked up with one of it’s quote, "Mother’s God in the eyes of their child". Residing to this quote, it doesn’t really mean that Mother IS GOD, but simply denotes that moms are the ones that most children are deared to, hard to forget. I might be wrong, but most of the cases are kinda in this flow. Now, try to ask yourself now, have you ever, seriously, and definitely tell your mom,"I love you,"?

It made me reflected back that… when I was really young (age is private), I remembered an old lady, with her husband, living just next to my grnadma’s place (Ya la… neighbour la…). She was one of those rich woman that don’t really have to worry about their money issues, food and etc. Those that msot of the woman in her year, envy of. Having jsut to sit infront of their house and rest. Im not sure of her real name, but she was known to me and my cousins as "Lau Sin". They have kids of coz, but they’ve all grown up, and maybe moved out. Coz I don’t really remember having to see any youngsters hanging around her place.

Years later, we all received a letter from the government. Says that we all would need to evacuate before XXXXXXX(not so sure when already). For my grandma, my grandpa have another on the other side of the town. So, it wasn’t much trouble for us. But for Lau Sin, they haven really find a place to stay, and was most likely, hope to stay with their children. But, things never did work out well eventually. especially when dealings with "IN LAWS". They’ve been pushed around, like an old bag, unwanted and unwelcomed. their daughters, their sons… Even to their most loved son, he was unable to truely protect them, and had chose to reside the desire of his wife.
There were no allowances given to them, no food, no freedom. The only thing that were given free, and was considered generous, is a small store room for them, AS their bedroom. My aunt visited Lau Sin, during her end years, witnessing that, she was sick, life was hard, and there is no one to even care about her. Even she had wanted to buy somethings from the grocery store, she was not allowed to go out. instead, her daughter in laws will helped her buy. "Help" was not the suitable word, as she even needed to pay for her own food and things that she wanted her in laws to buy. Nothing was free for her. They did not cooked for her sometimes, even if they did, they’d cooked something that she wasn’t allowed to eat, like putting a whole tonnes of salt in the dish. And her sons and daughter jsut sits there, like a dummy, watching their own mother being mistreated. How sad to see an old lady, being treated in such a manner by her own family. From a life to be envied, to a life of such pitiness.

What happened to the 10 months pregnancy? What happened to the milk she fed them? What happened to the money that they spend on them? but most importantly… What happened to the love that she had given them? I do wonder sometimes, when her children grows old, WILL they even thought that THEIR children would give them the same treatment as well? I’ll never know.
But friends, one thing I’m sure of is that… if you really love your mom that much, don’t let the history repeat itself.

I wonder what happen to her children now…

What are memories…

Memories… Is there an exact definition of what memories are? I wonder…
Sometimes, I think memories are… those things that our mind had left behind. Either good or bad, we always choose to remember it, or forget it.
Do you still remember what’s your favouraite TV channel when you are small?
Or, your 1st Christmas present?
Or… your 1st querrel with your best friend?
Your friend’s 1st betrayal to you?
Whether you still believe in tooth faries like you use to last time?

Some chose to remember it, some chose to forget it. But often, we tend to remember those things that we aim to forget, adn forgetting those that we wanted to remember. Weird huh? I find it weird too, and dilemma.
The other day, while I was chatting with ah wuong (haha…), one of the memories just hit me hard on the head, BANG! I was hoping that I can forget about such embarrasing memory though… But… Hahaha… I remembered that, last time, I use to join Bible study. I forgot what’s the main motivation, but, I jsut find it fruitfull when we learn from teh word of God. Our group was small sometimes maybe 2 or 3. Depends. We often had our bible study session during 4pm or 5pm.. evenning time every friday. But we have a very unique cell group teacher, but not to mention her name though. I remembered clearly that, during that evenning, students didn turn up. There was only me and the teacher. I felt a slight sorry for her though, as there isn’t any participants. But, she was full of enthusiastic. we carry on with our Bible study session with the only 2 of us.
Maybe, I was too tire? or not interested? I somehow did something very very embarrassing. I doze off in front of her. Hahaha… and she jsut kept talking, and watching me doze off. She didnt said a word, nor did she scold me. I jsut… doze off. and when the time I am really really awake, and realised of such embarrassment that I have done, I really had nothing to say though. Hahaha… Sometime, I jsut cant believe that I really doze off in front of her. Hahaha… Thereafter, I try to forget such embarrasment. But, even as time flows, it’s still stuck where with me. uneraseable…. *Hahahahaha…..* (author’s laughed till she fell of the chair, and choke… -.-"’…unbelievable…)