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The other side of suffering

Everyone feels pail,
But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive,
Even with sports, studying or other ordeals.
With life, it’s like that for everyone.
If we can beat the pain,
on the other side, a rainbow of happiness awaits us.
That will definitely become a treasure.
Let’s believe in that.

Was catching up some Japanese series lately themed <1 litre of tears>. Could i say the story was sad? depressing? frustrating? Hm.. I wonder.. i guess it is always sad, depressing and frustrating when any ending of any story is not a good one as we have wanted. especially when we are really awaiting for a slight of hope. As I followed up on this series, i dun deny that I have cried in almost every episode… from the beginning till the end. the theme of that series really reflects the story. But i guess towards that gal, it is indeed 1 litre of tears during her lifespan while struggling and fighting against the decease that will take her life away anytime. She had tried so hard to sustain walking, talking, writing, survive, to live on. as i watched upon her stories, i am impressed and stunned by her courage, her optimism, as everytime when she fell hard, she continues to stand up, and never give up. for every tears that she had shed, it was worth the effort that she had made.

I sometimes dun quite understand why things have to be in a way that which is opposite from what we are looking at it… Why does God take away people that are sincere in life, people that really shines their life, reflect on their own value. Or should I say.. why does God take away good people?… was is because they had deserved far more better? or jsut that becoz of their beautifulness in life, God had also loved them more? but no matter what it is, I believe God has His plans in doing His work. Just that there might be times whereby we might not be able to accept the fact of reality. because we are indeed too vulnerable, and the things in this world is just too huge for us to understand. why did it chose us? why does it happen only to us? questioning questions that will not retain an answer.

the story had indeed touched deep within me. i started to questioning questions that I have not think of for all my 23 years. reality is really cruel, too brutal. we have not known what will happen to us tomorrow. there is no definite sign of a firm expectation. we could only live our lives like we have never lived before. i guess, apart from the sufferings that we are encountering in life, there are surely some beautiful moments where encourages us to live on. the other side of sufferings, is the rainbow of happiness. 

esther

Was listenning to that usual song, by Ginny Owens <I am nothing> (I cant help it… I just adores her songs!) recently, and took observation in finding where is the source of love. I had known, it cannot be seen, take or touch, but to be able to feel the sense of being loved, cared and concerned. It is fairly common that we human are sensible creatures. we really do long for that sense of love, and care that can continuously cherrished on us. but at the same time, i dun deny the fact that we would then crave for more of these love once we are "attached" to it. its like a bee craving for the sweetness of honey ever since they had tasted it once. and they just continuously crave for more of these sweetness. I dont deny the fact that, from time to time, we are always cherrishing, giving out love to someone we really cared for. To friends, family, lovers, ourselves, or even to someone we barely know. I truely believe that, the very root of friendship all comes from the word love. if it wasn’t for that first taste of love, there will not be any friendship developed. but i guess that love eventually ran out, and thats why we have friends that are aparted from us. they no longer taste that love from us, but are unable to completely cut that friendship off. so, we are just being aparted. They will then look out for that taste of love from another someone else.

I believe all these happened to us. there are friends that we are closely connected to no matter what happen, and there are just some friends that are not so "click" with us. So, I guess from now on, I will try to give whatever that I have to whomever that wanted the sense of being cared for, and loved. Although sometimes it would hurt a little bit coz I know not all the out-given love are going to be replied. But, i guess this is the process of learning how much hurt God had gone through for us, regardless of all the sins that we have committed onto Him. =)

with love,
Esther

I guess I am willing to give, if the love inside of me, doesn’t runs out.