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couldn really sleep well these few nites, was too much worried about my assignments and plus, always thinking about my beans, not sure if he could get use of the change of his working shifts.. but thats alright.. as i woke up earlier, i just realised something really important i needed to do before the start of the day. i do realised that me and rhys fought alot. but to think about it.. isnt that normal? every couple would fight. all we need was to know how to sort things out between each other. there is no need for third party inteferences, giving us any advises on how we should be, how things should go, if thats the case, then u should do this, u should do that.. fcuk that!

i realised recently whenever im upset about rhys, we only get things sorted out by turning to each other. and yes… i have to thank Ms Sia for giving me that devotional book. there was a saying in that book that goes.. love can cover all mistakes and sin. just as Jesus did cover our mistakes and sins with His love. He forgive us. There is no way things are going to be sorted out by turning to other 3rd parties. i do realised that our friends do care about us, and that they tried to help us get things thru all the time. i do appreciate it. but somehow.. i think the advises never did work. becoz every relationship is different. i am different and so does rhys. maybe u guys do see the problems when i talk about it, but i think u guys will never know or understand what i need, to sort out the problems. the more u guys made inteferences, the more it will reflects how nosy u guys are. please dun do that? =) and the times that we managed to get things sorted out was by talking to each other. sometimes he dun even have to say anything, by just plainly being there.. its more than what i needed. i do know sometimes if i am upset, i would only think of the flaws. but in overall, i could only say that i have not felt this way for anyone ever before. i do not know if he is the one, but one thing i do know, he will always be there. and i want to be with him. my dear beans, u are my best reason. still remember when we had just started not long ago, i always wanted to be with u, always wanted to call u, but didn dare to do so.. coz everytime i see u, i jsut lost track of what i wanted to say to u. LOL.. i know its really really stupid. but as i tot, why do i even not dare to call u at all? u are my best reason to call, and all other things in my life.

u are right. why do i even care what other people think or what they say? it doesn really matter. coz if u dun care, why do i care about it? the only thing u cared about was me and me for u. thats all we need to know. u were the best thing that had happened in my life. i love u =)