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I dun really know if you are going to read this.. but Hown Ye, thank you… Thank you very very much… for what? for reminding me. last nite, i was still really blurred of the mistakes that i should not have made, or the things that i should not have said.. i was being very inconsiderate. im very sorry. i tried to sleep really early last night. but i couldn. he was in my mind. i had to leave my computer as i know, i will not help but do my usual stuff. eventually, i did manage to sleep, thanks to Caren. work up at 3 in teh morning, he is still in my mind… why…? i tried to sleep in and rest a little but i couldn. Caren was right.. Yiyi was right… Rhys was right… i am really stressed out… about what? my job, my assignments, exams, the mistakes that i have made last night, myself, i just… im just really tired. i really really need a long long holiday… just for myself. not anyone else. i got up tried to do my assignments, get myself motivated, but just cant help to browse back all those photos. and coincidentally, i browsed to Hown Ye’s facebook. i saw the photos that she took with our old friends, reminds me of how gleeful we were when we’re still in GRSS. it reminds me of the good times that i have.. nearly forgotten. it reminds me of me where i am myself. eventhough i was coping really hard with friends, and studies at that time, but we had fun. you guys were there for me. and the only thing that matter to us that time was to be able to hand in our homework on time. it really reminds me of me when i use to have everything planned nice and well, and not juggled up… yes.. i have to admit, things are a little messed up lately. with an extra demerit of my flu and cough, a little hectic on my assignments as i have really pressuring groupmembers this time, and a very very short period of time for me. i have everything sorted out for the mean time. i shouldn be weary about anything else if i had them all planned. thanks hown ye… indirectly you have saved me from my misdirections. i will be returning to my assignment now, and start charging! “gambate Esther! gambate!” i know you guys will be there to cheer for me =)

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